2011 has been the year from hell. Court date after court date, heartache after heartache. I feel like this one year has aged me by ten. Here's a recap of my year:
Started out ok. I was bound and determined to make this a great year despite my impending doom of turning the dirty 30. It was going to be the year Josh and I would celebrate 10 years together and hell, we might have even taken a vacation together. That all changed mid Feb when kid #3 sparked a lie that would change our lives for good. I'll spare you the gory details and just say this: we spent more time at the courthouse then either of us ever wanted or intended to. Thankfully by October, things were semi back to normal around here, though we are out quite a bit of money and time for the sake of putting our family back together. This has also been the year of reminders of my past. Abandonment issues I've never dealt with surfaced their ugly little heads this summer. I was not prepared for that. Financially this year has been crippling as it has for almost everyone I know. There has got to be a light at the end of this horrific year.
So there's a slight bit of insight into what we've been dealing with.I like to think of myself as someone who's got it all together and can handle just about anything. This year reminded me of just how painfully human I am and that I do not in fact possess super human skills that allow me to skip pain or the inevitable daddy issues that one with divorced parents most likely experiences. So to 2011, I say: Kiss my ass!!! I am reclaiming my life and my happiness in 2012. I am bound and determined to make this out year. God knows, we need the boost in morale.
